Edit: I seem to have lost the file where some of my photo's were. Guess I'll have to rescan them. So it may(I emphasize "may") be a few more days before I post anything, dadgumm it.

I really wanted to say this Friday, but I forgot I had a test to study for and other important work. Besides that te weekends are a confusin time for me, I never know what tto do.:dohtwo: Sorry!

My last journal was a fake(the irony is I was in a very cheerful mood making it), I guess I'm just very convincing. I'm not going I have no intentions to.

However most all that was said is true. I have gotten worse. I have my good days and bad days, and within those some very bad moments. But I'm feeling... I suppose maybe different now. I began physical theray two week back and its still to early to tell if any rel prgogress has been made, bu tthe fact I'm here typing this is a good sign. I've not had this boost of hope in a while. Thats not to say I've been alll gloom and doom. Mostly I've been tired, slow as well.

I feel I've regressed mentally. Having diluted myself so long into being a helpless person I have lost a lot of motivation and care. I feel spoiled somehow and tat I need special attention in school when really there are times I don't need anything. And besides that I have gotten very sensative, again mentally. I don't know how exactly, maybe I feel more anxious.

So now I have to go on a total brain rewire and start getting back to normal, even if the rest of me can't. And with the same determination as Kaneda I will endure.

Anyways I'll be getting some photos up soon, and finish this journal(I don't seem to finish much lately) and look foreward to some replies.